.Wednesday, January 21, 2009 ' Wednesday, January 21, 2009 Y
It is currently 12.05am now. Well, right now, I'm hearing the song, 'Main Agar Kahoon'. I just love shah rukh khan so much. His acting, especially when he's sad and cry, and also his sweet voice when singing.. It just makes my heart melt... He's my only hindustan hero! No one can beat him. He's been my hero since last time. How I wish I get to meet him one day...
The song 'Main Agar Kahoon' just makes me sad and makes me realise that I actually can't deny the fact that I miss someone. Probably, I've been lying to myself until the time I realise that I can't deny my feelings anymore cos my heart knows best. Right? At times, I don't know why it feels like I'm trying to like someone else. I don't know why am I trying to do that. But I can't. It's as if my heart scolds me and tells me I shouldn't be lying to myself. But seriously, I'm unsure of my own feelings right now. That's why I think the best way is to write my feelings in here.
My sis read this one novel. It's a very nice story. It's about these 2 people who likes each other since secondary school, but are too shy to confess their feelings, until they graduate and lost contact. The reason is because the guy continued his studies in overseas. He actually knows that the girl likes him too, and she's been very faithful and willing to wait for the guy for very long. But sadly, he still wasn't ready to tell his true feelings. So after they graduated and lost contact with each other, he regretted for not telling his true feelings towards the girl, who he've been liking for quite long too. He was confident that the girl will continue to wait for him. Therefore, he reserved her in his heart and will also wait for the time when fate meets them back.
After 10 years time, fate meets them back and surprisingly, they've been chatting with each other all the while, but they didn't know that they were chatting to the person they loved from last time. Sadly, the girl was already engaged to another guy at that time. But she can't deny the fact that she still loved the guy she used to love last time, whom now has come back to her, and only now he confess his feelings. Luckily the girl's fiance understood her feelings, and let her go.
The beginning of the story seems like my life story actually. But after the graduation thingy, and after the 10 years time, I'm not sure if my life story will be like this story. I can't predict my future. However, I believe in this malay sentence: Kalau ada jodoh, takkan kemana. Which means, if I'm destined to be with that person, my destination will be there. We try our best first, then we can surrender all decisions to Allah. Even in studies. Don't give up. Sesungguhnya Allah itu yang berkuasa...
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