.Tuesday, March 31, 2009 ' Tuesday, March 31, 2009 Y
I felt a bit tired today. Hmm, I've 2 maths worksheet, english summary and summary chart to be done. Well, day by day, homeworks are beginning to pile up. Sometimes, I do not even have the mood to surf the net to update my blog and check my emails. Now, my emails are bout 100+ already and I'm still lazy to check it out. The first thing I did and interested in is to check my blog and read other people's blog.
My mood was disturbed just now in the morning. I'm the type of person who doesn't like to compete with others in any ways. In terms of studies is one of them. Sports games? Well I guess that it's just stupid for certain people to compete in games. Win or lose, do you think I care? It's just a game and not a competition. =.=" no big deal seriously. Even if I lose in a so-called 'not a competition game', I don't even complain. Some people just love to complain. For the ones who 'succeeded', sometimes are too proud of themselves. In my opinion, people who react in being proud is cos they hardly succeed in what they've been doing and they've been trying to compete with others. When they've succeeded, that's when they thought that they're 'so-called' the best cos they're jealous of other people's ability to do something in the first place. I'm sure for those people who received this kind of stupid attitude, you'll feel like smacking their face using which ever object you're holding on to. Whoever who read this and feel that this thing is referring to you, my advice is, 'jgn terase'. Okay? Cos I'm just stating my opinion and not being a hypocrite, as in talking behind people's back. I'm sure many people experienced this before.
HAHAHA now then I feel relieved after sharing this stupid attitude of people in my blog.
Woah I said the word 'stupid' 3 times. Maybe that's the reason why I feel relieved. LOL. :D
Apart of being relieved, actually I have this particular feeling in me right now, that I do not know how to explain. Mixture. 80% sadness, 10% happiness, 5% strength and 5% weakness in me. Sad of many things and happy of lil things.
SADNESS
- leaving school soon this year
- gonna miss my teachers, hillgrovians(everybody in hgvss), school(planted with sadness and
happiness throughout the 4 years)
- MISS my SJAB, all my beloved juniors who've filled my life with laughters. :'( thanks guys.
- sacrifice my own happiness to see my loved one being happy, even though actually it really
hurts.
HAPPINESS
- even if I'm sad to leave school, at least I get to forget all the problems I face with my friends
and start afresh.
STRENGTH
- waited for some... for almost 4 years. However, when I got to know the truth, I cried. But it
took me some time to cool down and now I'm strong cos I'm able to accept the fact at last.
WEAKNESS
- my studies
- even though I'm sacrificing my happiness for another person to be happy, it is actually hurting
myself.
MIXED FEELINGS! )':(: CRY, SAD, HAPPY. %) GOING CRAZY.
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