.Monday, May 04, 2009 ' Monday, May 04, 2009 Y
Hey, hmm I've not been blogging for quite some time. I'm just lazy actually, but still ineterested in reading other people's blog. So here I am. Well, on Saturday, I went johor from morning till night with my aunt and uncle, my mum and my 2 younger brothers. We went to find wedding hantaran and cards for my wedding? Maybe. It was really a long day. Ate bout like 4 times there. No wonder I'm becoming much more chubbier. Apart from that, might also because I'm stress and that's why I eat a lot.
Even today, I ate 8 sushis, brought home by my sis yesterday night. 3 in the morning, 3 after reached home late from school and 2 for dinner, which means I do not need to eat for my dinner. I'm too full, till now, 10.12pm. I notice I really eat so much lately. I eat when I'm bored, I eat when I'm not hungry, I eat when I'm hungry. As long as I have nothing to do, I eat. Haisss am I so stress as to result to this?
Well, today morning(yesterday midnight), I dreamt, bout the same person I dreamt the last time. The weird thing is, why must all the dreams I dreamt bout him must be sad? This time, the dream was much more sad that I nearly cried in my dream. Aren't there any happy dreams for me? Psl die je sedih, psl die je sedih. Serious I'm not lying. Is it because of our condition now that made me dream bout the sad thing between us? But what's the motive of the dream? I don't really wanna think bout it cos from what I know, dreams are just the game of our minds. =.="
Well MYE is coming really soon, this thursday. Fyi, I'm not prepared. Too many chapters to learn in a subject. How am I going to cope? No wonder I'm stress.
Btw, now, I feel a bit lazy to attend madrasah every sunday. No feeling of anxiousness anymore. Last year, I used to be happy and always anxious to go for madrasah. But now....... :(
Now, at this point of time, I'm unsure of my own feelings. Why am I acting this way in school? Why do I seem like ignoring some people in the school, when actually I really want to talk to them? Actually there are just 2 reasons. "D..........." and "J......". Will I be lucky enough to be in the shoes of the girl and be loved by the person I love? Well,, that's only if I can but definitely impossible. But I wish to! But I think that it's better to be my ownself, because I have kept a lot more memories than her. So I should be proud of that. Right? Haiyo Athirah... don't think too much bout it, even though this thing has been bothering you! Be strong! Go go jiayou! (:
My stomach is grumbling now. Hungry? Don't think so. But if it is, I don't care. Let it grumble even if I were to fall sick because of not eating.
Umi Athirah= Wu Mi(dance honey) Ai Ti La(love mentions hot) :)))
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