.Saturday, January 23, 2010 ' Saturday, January 23, 2010 Y
For now, what i can say is that I'm just so fed up with many people! Frustrated, heartache, and bla bla bla lah............... Perasaan campur-baur. Okay whatever. Hmm, org yg kite harap-harapkan, jauh dari hati. Org yg tk kite harapkan lak, bukan dekat di hati, tapi setakat dekat di hp ajer. Kalau nk kate hati, mcm dlm sgt. Padahal tk pon. Hais.
Lagi satu pulak, harapkan org di negeri jiran untuk msg, tapi yg msg, org yg tk dirindui... Sekurang-kurangnye, tanye lah khabar sekali-sekala, org tu. Msg ke, antar email ke, antar comment kat facebook ke... Ni langsung tkde! Mcm dah tk peduli dgn org kat sini. Maklumlah, confirm busy dgn makwe die kat sane jer... Cemburu tau! Org da tk peduli karang baru tau. :S Geram betul.
Okay, so anyway i've made up my decision in forgetting or keeping certain people in my life. For this one particular person, i've actually made up my mind to forget him, and was already trying to forget, but couldn't. But now i feel that it's pointless to keep a friend who doesn't appreciate me even a bit. Yes, even a bit. The person always says that he'll always treasure ALL his friends. But it seems like he's leaving out some, so it clearly means that i'm not a friend to him, right? I'm just an unimportant person who suddenly appeared in his life years ago. When he wishes to talk to me, he'll come to me. When he's happy or found 'someone' new in his life, he'll totally forget bout me. So what am i in that person's eyes? A soft toy which you can play with anytime when you're bored and just throw it away when you've bought a new one? So why must i keep a friend like that? Especially if the person thinks that i'm just troubling him in some way. Fine, now i've made up my mind. I'll forget you since you don't care bout me at all, unlike what you were. You were a very friendly, caring, helpful, and more other good qualities you had. These were what i always thought of you last time. But now, you're just a different person. You nvr actually appreciate me, now you've become an unfriendly person and now you've no longer possess the good qualities you had last time. Let me tell you this. Once a girl is hurt by a guy, the girl will no longer see anything good bout that guy, even though last time she always supports the guy and say good things bout him when he's being embarrassed by his friends. Even when my friends commented anything bout him, I used to scold them and said good things bout him. Now I feel that I've wasted my time for the past secondary school years befriend-ing a person who doesn't appreciate me at all when actually i treasure him as a friend so so much. I'm sad, really sad... :'( I've always been hurt by his self-centered behaviour. He might not know. Even if he knows, does he even care bout me? I don't think so. That's cos he already has so many friends what. So i guess, losing a friend isn't a great big deal for him. But what if nobody wants to be friends with him? At that point of time, then he'll realise how important it is to treasure every friend he has, and not discarding them as and when you like. Now i'm trying to forget that friend of mine. If I still can't forget my friend, then it only means 1 thing. He means a lot to me. Hmm, after how many years of knowing me, he still don't understand me. Whatever la..... Now at last i have the guts to let out my feelings in this blog. I want to stop here for today.
My ending sentence for today is: "For me, you've changed. I'll try to forget you, even though you mean a lot to me. I'm sure you're happy that I'm forgetting you. Go ahead and find happiness in your life. I'll no longer interfere in your life."
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