.Wednesday, February 17, 2010 ' Wednesday, February 17, 2010 Y
I've just came back frm m'sia. Hmm... overnight at malacca on saturday night, then the nxt morning make our journey to kl. Nek yah, my grandfather's younger sister who stayed in kl, waited at the kl toll to lead the way to sunway lagoon. Well.... her family followed along. Hmm, first played all the dry games, like roller coaster and the others. Actually I have height phobia, but I still insist to try the roller coaster.
When I lined up and saw the people on the roller coaster, it looks fine and the slope doesn't look steep. But just as I was on the roller coaster itself, I felt scared when it started to go up the slope. My heart was already beating fast and I was beginning to cry. Just as I tried to control my tears, the roller coaster went down the slope in a very fast speed. It was then I realised that the slope was steep. I just started to cry because couldn't stand the steep slope which the roller coaster went up and down for 2 times, i think. Couldn't even grab some air.
After that, I tried to gain strength and confidence and went to play the some sort of 'inverter' game, where the thing like turn the whole thing around until our body upside down in the air. It was much more scarier than the roller coaster. But since I tried to gain strength and threw away my fears after the roller coaster, I tried not to cry for the second one. Instead, I kept shouting "Ya Allah!" for like sooooo many times I couldn't even count. Maybe that gave me strength.
Then also walked on the long bridge. I hold on to the ropes at the side of the bridge cos it was shaky plus it was so high up frm the swimming pool below. Then played wet games. When I was in the water for so long, I got bored and just did nothing.
So after sunway lagoon, went don't knw where to buy some bread frm subway. Grabbed the chance cos s'pore's subway isn't halal. Then went to nek yah's house. At night, went to pasar mlm but nvr buy anything. I just don't like to buy things I want. I just buy things I need. Well, nxt day went to klcc then went to Nilai which is located between malacca and kl. That was where I separated frm nek yah's family. It was so sad, lagi2 cos ............ Hmm... all the way back spore I looked outside the car window, frm afternoon till night. Plus hear songs frm my hp and dream away, think bout things... Hais.... No one knws.
Entah bila lagi dpt balik m'sia... Tapi buat masa skrg ni, mungkin tak nak fikirkan sgt psl org2 kat sana..... Nanti takut org sini je yg rindukan org sana, tapi org sana tk rindukan org sini. Sia-sia aje...
I put this in my facebook wall:
"Walaupun kita begitu rapat dahulu, kini tdk. Kau seperti sudah berubah. Biarlah kita berjauhan untuk seberapa lamanya, walaupun hati ini terlalu merindukanmu. Aku terlalu ingin mengongsi cerita dan masalah padamu, kerana kau lah tempat aku bergantung untuk menceritakan suka dan dukaku dahulu. Namun kini aku berjauh hati utk mengongsi masalah dgnmu kerana aku rasa kau tdk seperti dahulu."
Only me who understand this, i guess.... I don't want to make it look obvious that I'm referring to the particular person. I don't want the person to knw how I feel. I wrote that to let out my feelings in general, that's all... Hmm...
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